fluWhat a week, I started my first day of "college" January 2nd, except the day before I started school my son came down with what seems to be a 24 hour flu. No biggie, got him feeling better, dropped him off at his dad's and went to school. The first class I have to take is English Composition. It's a two hour class starting at 7:30 a.m. M-F, for six weeks. Thankfully I like English and writing so it should be a breeze for me. Anyways, my instructor seems pretty nice which will make the time pass by quickly.
Wednesday I ended up coming down with what my son had earlier in the week, which wasn't fun at all. I didn't get much sleep, couldn't keep anything down, coughing, and runny nose. Needless to say I missed school Thursday because I wasn't feeling all that well still and I didn't wanna bring whatever I had to the rest of the class. I ended up sleeping most of the day away on my couch while my son played and climbed all over me. When my mom got home from work her and I discussed whether or not I should return to school on Friday or not. We came to the conclusion that I should stay home and get completely well before returning to class. I wouldn't be doing myself any justice by re-infecting myself (most of the class is coughing and sneezing like I was) and risk again getting them sick with what I have. So, I ended up e-mailing my teacher explaining to her that I was sick with the flu which is why I had missed class. I also asked if she could tell me what I had missed during my absence so that I can complete the assignments by Monday and turn them in. I think that I like college better, because in High School, you didn't have the option to e-mail your teacher and get your missed assignments in a timely manner so you can do them before you return to class. It's easier and more convenient for the student. So, since I didn't have to get up at 5:45 in the morning, I broke down and took some Nyquil last night and I actually got a full nights rest, without waking up a dozen times in the middle of the night. When I woke up this morning I felt better than I have in the past couple days despite still being sick. Checked my e-mail, got the assignments from my teacher and am ready to get busy on them so I'm not to far behind in class.
Who knows maybe tomorrow I will be feeling a whole lot better so I can go out drinking for a little bit because my Birthday is on Sunday and I haven't went out in at least 6 months. It'd be nice to escape the drama I have been through over the past months, kick back and relax with my friends. Have a few laughs and dance the night away.
Saw this and thought I would share it because I know I have been through a lot when it comes to love and relationships and I know that what is written here are things I have often thought about. Sure somewhere out there, there are girls just like me who feel the same way as well. (No I did not write what is written below)
To every girl....if you almost cry while reading this, it includes you....
To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again, because she has been HURT too many times or so badly.
To every girl that has been cheated on, because she's not a slut who gives it up to any guy.
To every girl that dresses cute, not skanky.
To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not hot.
To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.
To every girl who gets her heart broken, because he chose that bitch instead.
To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess.
To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.
To every girl that won't get down on her knees & open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.
To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
To every girl who just wishes he cared more.
To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.
To every girl who just wants him to call.
To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
To every girl that just wants to sleep with him without having sex.
To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.
To every girl that thought "maybe this one could be the one."
To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually >>doesn't<< think it is funny.
To every girl who is just looking for that one and only. and is having a rough time along the way.
To every girl that doesn't want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
To every girl who wants words backed up with actions.
To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find themselves alone in the end.
To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.
To every girl that has faith that "tomorrow will be a better day." And it will be.
For starters I honestly can't believe how fast this year went, it seems like only yesterday I was out celebrating my 21st birthday with my siblings and boyfriend at the time, but then I realize my 22nd birthday is just around the corner. So much has happened in my life this year, some good things and some things I would much rather forget and get behind me as soon as possible. But that’s life we all suffer good times and bad times, but we’re never given more than we can handle at once.
In the year 2006, I made some really awesome friends, one of which is my best friend Missy whom I would honestly be lost without. She has defiantly befriended me in a short amount of time and I can honestly say that we are like sisters and nothing will ever break the bond that we share. Not only did I gain a friend, but my son also gained three playmates because she has 3 kids. I’ve gotten in touch with old friends from school and ones I haven’t talked to in years and got caught up on their lives. I may have fallen out of love with someone I cared deeply for, but it doesn’t matter because I now realize that I am better off without him. Now that we’re not dating I know what kind of man he truly is. Something I would have never known because I was blinded by love and didn’t want to see the truth. I’ve lost loved ones that were very dear to me and I will miss them greatly, but though they may be gone they will never be forgotten because they will forever be in my heart. I’ve learned a lot about myself this year, developed a stronger bond with my son, made a difference in the lives of people I have met, saved lives, fought a couple fires, and lived life to it’s fullest. Not only that but this year I have made the decision to go back to school and further my education in the medical field. I personally have learned that you can accomplish and over come anything that life throws at you no matter how much you think other wise. Those who know me very well know the sorts of things that have dealt with in the last couple months. I am greatly thankful that I have such great friends who have stood by me through thick and thin. Some have seen or heard me at my worst when tears have streamed down my cheeks because I started to feel as if everything was crashing down around me. Guess what I’m still here, fighting the battle to keep my insanity, keeping my head held high and not letting anything get in the way of my dreams. I live this life and put up with everything that is dealt me for the sake of my son, he is my rock and my constant reminder why I endure the things I do.
As the year 2007 begins I plan on bettering myself and making positive changes in my life. Starting Jan 2, I will become a full time student majoring in nursing to become a Licensed Practical Nurse. It will be a long 18 months of hard work and dedication, but I know that I can do it because it’s something I want to do and a goal I want to achieve. I am setting another goal for myself and that is to cut back on my swearing, my close friends know just how much I swear and it’s crazy. Now that my son is to the age of repeating things and he’s starting to talk to more I have to be careful what I say around him. I don’t want my son being a foul mouthed child. Sometime this year I am going to learn how to drive, with me going back to school it’s a must because I am going to need to be able to get to and from school, as well as to and from clinical. This year I am going to be a better friend and keep in contact with my friends because losing touch with those I have known through the years sucks. Mainly because some of them have been with me through really tough times and I really want to return the favor. I’m going to forgive those who have hurt me in the past, mend broken friendships, and make new friends. I’m going to let go of old hurts in relationships because dwelling on what past loves have done to hurt me is preventing me from even coming close to being happy in possible new relationships. I’m going to work hard to becoming a more trusting person and not bottling my feelings up inside. I’m going to live the life I want and take the road less traveled, live life to it’s fullest. Do crazy things like dance in the rain, believe in love, miracles, and happy endings. I’m going to be a better mother to my son., teach him the things every child should know. Nothing is going to get in the way of my dreams and the life that I want for my son and I.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.
~anonymous~
A wonderful woman posted this for me because she knows that I am facing tough times right now and losing sight of what is important to me. She helped remind me to live my life to it's fullest, that hearts are going to be broken, but we can't dwell on the heartache and pain suffered. We have to move on, smile often, hold those dear to you close by letting them know you love them. Forgive those who have hurt you in the past, start anew before it's to late. We face many rough spots in our lives, we need people to help us through them.
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